my mental state very fragile
i am on the fence kind of feeling
and either which way i should fall will hurt
so i'm not sure what to do
i won't do anything at all
i have to keep my crap together
i am so afraid to write what i deeply feel
and it does not feel good
unknown pains
no answers
nothing clear
just not feeling better in any way
under my right arm
feels bruised inside
it's the bag that i let be done to me
i should have gone with my gut and not have anything
such as the balloons in my chest
the pain is from a plastic bag
what was i thinking
now there is just so many things
i sometimes don't know if i am coming or going
i don't know what to say other than
it is scary
i don't like the feeling
it is something i have to be conscious of
as it manifests physically like now
in my gut
and just spreads
anybody
anybody
please
am i alone in this
don't know
just don't get how strong it can become
fighting it
me