Every time I stir to wake each day
Before my eye even open
Conscious of the pain of depression wants so hard to take over my body
I keep fighting the feeling after some meditation prayer
Pray that my family not have a rough day
Haven't heard from my eldest when I disclosed what happened
She is reacting in a very strange manner
As a product of the same makeup what I mean here is
"It hasn't escaped the difficulties we all suffer from"
It did not sit well with her that her brother was the one my adult child in a rehab now telling her what the choice of dirt was this time and both agree their eldest sister wouldn't understand
And the next thing she needed to get off the phone and speak to her untrusting (just my assements) her life her business
But the family in crises must all be on the same page
So now I have my eldest going through I don't know what
It was this she just did not like
"She changed, she wouldn't understand"
Is it this
Is it me brining it to her attention after speaking to her
about it and that I am not involved in the interactions my children have with each other but am in awe they in the end find their way back together
Something must be going on between them for her to react as she is
This just makes it a little harder to get us together
and have a dining room table sit down
A mothers job never ends
This too is making me sad
I will wait to hear from her
Until then
My other child will be on her way home
Wednesday after a week in there
It is not taken as seriously as I would have had enough experience
What really matters is that she make it work

Anyhow
No word other then he is doing better
Will be seeing his cardiologist

And I will fight this feeling
And hope for a good day

Peace to my friends
Me