Sorry for the choppy writing, I was injured about a week ago. I was at a gym and a piece of equipment broke and hit me over the top middle of my head, using a 185lb weight being pulled towards me (think lat pulldown). So in order to move the 185lb weight I would imagine at least 186lbs or more of force is needed, which leaves it at getting a 186lb+ weight dropped square on the top of my head.

Before my injury I was ( I like to think) at least mildly high functioning, difficult high pressure job in a sales enviornment, lifting heavy weights 5-6 days a week and going to school in the evening. Now I can't hold a conversation or make simple decisions or drive, I'm afraid because I know what I'm capable of and I'm not sure how big the gap is between that and where I currently am, but I know it's pretty big.

I have a loving wife who takes great care of me but she doesn't quite get it, I feel confused and depressed most of the day. I'm not sure what if anything I can do to help myself heal or help my situation. I hate being like this because normally I over-do everything and my single greatest fear is not doing enough, so to be locked into a state where I can't do anything even if I want to is terrifying.

My symptoms have been almost everything on the list. Forgetfulness, bad balance, become tired very quickly, difficulty solving problems, mood swings, headaches, irregular sleep pattern either can't sleep or sleep for 12-18 hours straight, dizziness/general "out of it" feeling of being disoriented, loss of sex drive/interest in sex, just today I've noticed that my peripheral vision seems to be much worse than usual. I've learned to say "forgetfulness" first because I find myself forgetting some of the symptoms every time a new medical person asks. I had to write them down and keep the list in my pocket for doctor visits. I'm sure I forgot something, didn't consult the list.

thank you for responding, any feedback is much appreciated.