Yep, I feel you. Married the love of my life, got concussed two months later. Now she works and lives in South Korea and I live in my moms house. I pushed her away cause I was hurting her so much, lost all control of emotions and couldn't bear to take it out on her anymore.

I think often of ending its too...if a doctor told me with confidence that this is how I will be forever I would seriously think about it. But..such is not the case, no guarantees on this injury. You could be like this for a few years and a flip will switch and you will be a lot better and life will glow again, the waiting is hard..but yes this injury is..well it sometimes feels a lot worse than death.

But then there are people here who have lived with this for years and years and they are somehow making it. I still don't get how but I guess time will be the great teacher. And if you don't give it time then you will never know. People spend years and years in jail and then come out to live fulfilling lives, think about this as jail and you are in prison and one day you will be free. You will never experience the freedom if you decide to end it in your jail cell. Things I tell myself to keep going forward.