There isn't much I can do to occupy my time at this point without the onset of symptoms. I've been doing OK today but I'm constantly trying to avoid sunlight of any kind even with the theraspecs. I was doing podcasts last month but this whole mess started around Christmas and then I pushed it too far with music and here I am back to square one with horrible timing. I will try to work my way up again but I doubt that will be successful. I'm just lacking self control at this point.

I'm scared to rest and scared to be up and around sunlight. This is a miserable existence.

I will say she has been texting me but I don't know what that means. There is no I love you or pet names, she's treating me like a friend.

Ugh my head is starting to hurt from this post.