Oh Billye:

I got so excited. I went and did the bra finder thing. (I'm still doing it).

I found my bra. Front close (looks like a Victoria Secret thing). I clicked on it. I started shouting to Alan. "Oh my god, there's a bra for $3.99". He goes "really??" Then I click on size and it only goes up to 38

I'm dead.

Okay, I just went back and dig some digging. I know exactly what I want. I want a leisure, lightweight thing that doesn't look like a harness. Sure, they have plenty around. BUT NOT IN A 42 OR A 44C. And if you find one, it's $44.00. Now this is not fair. They have exactly the one I want, it's by Hanes. It's a lightweight leisure thing that you close in the front and it's $3.99 but not in my size.

I'll never be a size 38. Oh my god, I'm destined to be in a harness for the rest of my life? oh, the pain, the pain!!!!!

lol