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Originally Posted by Always_Believe
I'm just so discouraged at this point. My pain level has been elevated since the end of the first day (a week ago). I am finding that if I have to go to the bathroom more than normal, by the end of the day I am having to use the walker or scoot across the floor because I can't put weight on my leg.
And this book that I'm supposed to read is irritating me. I'm sorry, but why is "chronic pain" almost always associated with back pain/issues??? And when there is a diagnosed nerve component, why is that bypassed and it is automatically a 'problem' with the brain? I guess I could see the effectiveness of all the mumbo-jumbo if my pain was either at a more tolerable level &/or I had function. I don't. My pain level has been a pretty steady 7-9 since my first day in this program and was a steady 6-8 prior to. Sure, I can wake up at about a 3-4 but one trip to the bathroom and it doesn't get back to that.
I am struggling with going tomorrow...my kids are coming in from out of state tonight because their grandfather (my ex f-i-l) has been in ICU since Sunday night from an accidental overdose of one of his medications (not sure if it was insulin or a blood pressure med) and they found stage 4 cancer in his liver, lungs, tongue and throat. He is not able to swallow to eat and is refusing a feeding tube. So he is going home on hospice probably not going to make it a week. I won't even be here for my kids when they get in late tonight as I will be at my mom's for my stupid RIC (put me in more) pain program.
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Having CRPS is like trying to chase out of your house someone that you don't want. They just run from room to room trying to avoid you, wrecking havoc as they go. The great news is... and I really believe this.. there is so much beauty in the world despite our CRPS pain and disability.
You and your family are in my prayers .. I pray for you and the CRPS battle you wage and for you and your entire family with your F-I-L's battle with cancer. I pray for Peace from Above.