"Man Flu!" lol. I love it! And I love that you can admit it, Dave!

Bizi, I'm thankful I had my posts to rely on for that info. I didn't anticipate the need to journal, but since I post everyday my thread served as one. I'm thankful in so many ways for this forum, and for all of you

Bobby, I'm sorry you had such a bad reaction to seroquel.

There are some drugs I can't take at all like depakote, risperdal, zyprexa, and cipro. But I think I have a high tolerance for most meds because Ive been on such high doses of **** over the years and haven't experienced the sensitivities and side effects that most of you mention.

At my appointment, my PCP mentioned he was concerned that I was on 400mg of gabapentin, too. I was on 600/600/1200mg of it for about 8yrs! Along with a **** load of other drugs including 1800mg of lithium! He was shocked by that even though he was my doctor the entire time. Truth be told, a lot of funky neuro things were going on and nobody realized it was the lithium until I stopped it for good in June. My old neurologist thought I was a nut job.

I don't take anything to treat the MS or its symptoms anymore. It's not the decision that most people make, but my neurologist agrees with me, and says that I'm already on too many meds that act on the brain.
But that's not the decision I can make regarding my bipolar disorder. It's dangerous and difficult to control. I'm thankful that I can tolerate meds to the degree I can. I don't know what kind of shape I would be in otherwise.

I'd be more suspicious that the seroquel was causing the fatigue and cognitive problems if those symptoms didn't disable me prior to my BP diagnosis and prior to the use of any of these meds, if the increases of seroquel had a direct correlation to the increase in fatigue, and if reducing the daytime dose of it had improved my symptoms.

That being said, putting somebody with MS, fatigue, and cognitive issues on so many meds isn't going to turn out well no matter how you slice it. It is going to play some role. There has been consistency for some time even being on so many different meds, but for some reason there's a change for the worse right now. I'm just kind of grasping at straws looking for something that will prove that this won't be permanent.



I have my appointment with drunk.org this afternoon. I finally get to find out how much punishment I will receive for my honesty. I'm not expecting the "treatment plan" to be reasonable, but I'm going to try my best to hold my temper. My anxiety is sky high right now, but I expect it will go down again once I get the verdict and accept my fate.

Even though I'm going to have to go through this process, I've pretty much stopped thinking about the end game of getting my license back because it seems so far off right now because I have to complete whatever the counseling recommendations are and I don't know how much time it will take. Not being alert enough to drive right now is also a major factor.