Mine have gotten worse also In March the panic attacks started, it might be because of my decision to move out of my home with Bill In April after I moved in here I ended up going to the ER before I had the VNS put in. I knew though that I wasn't having a Panic attack that night. I ended up having a heart attack and it might have been from the stress from the panic attacks and what I was going through.

I have sense had quite a few panic attacks. I had one tonight. I had a Drs. appt. and we discussed my sleep apnea test and then we talked about the 4th of July and what each of us were going to do. I was fine until I got home and then it hit me. On my computer desk we have pictures from the last 4th of July with Bill. On's of me and Bill, one with Bill with each of the boys and one of all four of us, one of all 6 of us, then some of Bill with each of the men that I call our adopted kids. I just went into a major one and was crying and panicing so bad that I will dealing with all of the symptoms. I called my Dr. and he talked to me about what I should and shouldn't do. At this point I don't know if I can go to the picnic that the kids are having out at our place Wed night. The memories just came flooding back and I haven't been able to get to sleep yet. I have to get some rest though for a Drs. appt. tomorrow morning or I won't make it to it.

I do wish you could get your SSI. I will do a lot of praying for you, I know exactly what you are going through because of what I went through to get mine. The stress of what we all go through brings on these attacks.

Back to Vanessa, I didn't mean to take away from your post, I just wanted to touch up on the panic attacks also. They do come with the councelling.

I realize I most likely talk too much about Bill on here also and I'm sorry for that but I just wanted to tell Allen about what brings mine on.

Hang in Allen and you too Vanessa. I'm glad to see so many of you getting the help you need for the depression.

Ada