Goodness, I remembered you were young but wasn't sure quite how young. This tears the heart. Of course you would not want to settle for this.

Ketamine doesn't always give immediate results. My PM warned me results were cumulative in his experience and indeed it wasn't earth shattering at first. But improvement did come as I continued to get them. Another member had improvement follow a bit later as well. So don't give up on those yet. I'm glad you started the infusions. There is good literature behind their use.

Remember we are here. You are not alone in this though it may feel so.