Thanks so much everyone for your kind words and thoughts. My mind is in a little bit better spot right now...not my pain because the shoulder was at a steady 8 most of the time unless at rest for long stretches of time...and since the shot this afternoon its at a CONSTANT 10 regardless of whether I am using the arm or not. Its 2am and I just can't seem to fall asleep no matter how tired I am and pain meds are not helping (or if they are heaven help me if they stop). But I am trying to be optimistic about the shot helping after a few days...it's so easy to get caught in the doom and gloom so I'm trying to drag myself out of it. The boyfriend is off tomorrow so hopefully he can manage baby duty all day so I can rest the arm. I hate putting so much on him...but there's just no way I can do much tomorrow if tonight is any judge.

Anyway...just wanted to say thanks to everyone for your kind words and support. I know so many have it worse than me...I guess it's just hard to have worked so hard to regain a sense of normalcy in your life and have all that fall to pieces because of a new setback. Plus...I was really looking forward to taking the baby to Disney this April and that's just not very likely at this point. I know...not a prioroty right now...but I've been collecting Disney gift cards as birthday and Christmas Gifts since my daughter was born to save up for this trip this year and really wanted to go during the flower and garden festival. But oh well...maybe by September I'll be better which is less crowded anyway. The shoulder will hopefully be better by then.

Hopefully this shoulder specialist will have an answer and a plan for me. I almost feel like I'm back on my initial RSD path again with the doctors...but this pain doesn't feel like RSD and that has me optimistic that there is a way to address this pain and recover from it. So...fingers crossed and keep those positive thoughts and prayers coming...it means so much to me to have you all here for support.