Father it's like some other being occupies this body
Where do I go
What happened to me
Why do I have to suffer I more than just one kind of pain
Why don't I have any control over my body
It does what it wants
It pinches
It burns
It cracks
It weak
It has muscles that just deflated
It is throbbing
It won't leave me be
Every bloody morning
Just stops by to start your day
Satan I rebuke any evil you come to bring false hope
and instead inflict any horrible thought imaginable
Everything happening with cause and effect
I just want to be the Eva that got up and kicked butt in my day
It felt good to retire form the hectic day

I have to get my granddaughter set up to begin school

I want us at the pool this summer as much as possible

I want to move like I used to

I had my own swag

All knew it was Eva

That seemed so long ago

Where are You Father

Come into my heart caress my soul
It cries blood
The life leaving my body slowly everyday
I rot a little more each day
My wish to jump out of bed and just run run run
My feet just not happening
My hand just not holding on
I slip away slowly and nobody sees
I'm gone
Lend me a hand Father
Hold me in your arms
Breath life into me
In Jesus name
Amen