Having a tough start again
Yesterday was shrink
Today pain specialist
Next week oncologist
And not a thing to say
I will finally GET the results of blood
Done almost two months ago
Fifteen pages
I want to know what my oncologists
Remark meant
Hand are so painful I have to itch them
Anybody
Anybody
Is it just a freak thing that's going on
The pictures do not lie
No denying something is causing it to happen

My mind
It stirs so early in the morning
Having to write
As this is meditation time
Trying to fight off depression
Talking to myself
Trying to rid this feeling
Nobody
Nobody should have to live such like this
I tell my shrink all that is happening
Do not leave anything out
And no progress involving this feeling I have come to visit me every morning
The story all know by now
And five o'clock this morning no fail
Awakened
Me