As any of you who are familiar with my situation know, I am under immense amounts of stress. I am having trouble occupying my time. I'm trying to accept my reality and be as happy as possible but it's very difficult with all that in dealing with. I cannot do much without overstimulation but resting only seems to fuel stress and anxiety let alone depression.

I've come to the conclusion that pushing myself out of bed and doing something even if it causes some symptoms is the only way I'm going to survive. I am unsure if this is the way to go but I feel I have no other choice. I have tried taking it as easy as possible and this only ends up with me stressed and depressed which can't be good for recovery.

I'm coming up on 17 months post first concussion and know that I can improve to back where I was in August before the stress of moving and my brother dying completely derailed me. No further injury yet my symptoms have been worsened to their highest level.

Does anyone have any thoughts or suggestions on how to deal with this? I've been trying to exercise lightly and slowly expose myself to light but I haven't noticed any real improvements. I am still unable to tolerate lights that I was under all day in November. This is quite a frustrating situation, because like I said, I haven't reinjured myself - just stress and overstimulation I guess. I fear that these latest changes are permanent and I want to see some kind of improvement like in August.