I am so sorry you are going through such a rough time. I know how frustrating it is when you try to do something to keep your mind off of the pain and it ends up causing more problems. Forgetting what happened two minutes ago can be irritating and sometimes embarrassing. I was on the phone with my lawyer today and could not find the words to explain something to him.
I know you are a religious person so don't be afraid to ask him to take some of the pain and stress. I know I feel better when I have a good cry and prayer session.
I hope you can get a break in the pain and get some rest that I am sure you need. Don't be afraid to ask for help from your family and friends or us here.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayer