I can say that after taking this semester off it was a good idea as the fatigue and anxiety were really physically running my body down. I know that I am seeing one of the best doctors for this, and I am fortunate to live close to a place with such great healthcare. He encouraged me to try and go back to school which I did, but I just physically could not keep up with the three hour labs and all the work it was going to take. That was hard as I used to work all week until eight, ten or twelve hours a day, and then be in the gym and go out with my friends every other minute of the day.Talk about bad timing but I also got mono four weeks after the head injury, and I can tell that is still hanging around as I have swollen lymph nodes and am just not 100% over it.

I have never wanted to go back to school so bad now that I at least know why I was feeling so anxious and having the insomnia I was. In a way I take comfort knowing that the anxiety and overwhelmed state I had wasn't me, but I know my mind still doesn't process the same.

Today I was just in the garage and looked at some stuff I had been working on and I thought to myself that my vision was so bad that I couldn't have done that two months ago. Simple progress markers like that are easy to forget about, but are helpful.

As far as I am concerned, I think the anxiety is the biggest thing I have to overcome as I am always fearful that I am just digging myself into a hole. It seems the more fatigued I get the more anxious I get and the harder it is to sleep. I just hope this feeling passes as my symptoms hopefully improve. I know I had some underlying anxiety which runs in my family (just ask my friends as they always said that I looked like I could take down an elephant the day of a test with all the adrenaline I had). If anything this injury forced me to slow things down and just appreciate being alive, not putting so much pressure on myself to always be going full speed.

I'm sure you can relate to this CollegeKid, but for me it's so easy to forget about how much of my health I still have and that a lot of these anxieties can muddy the waters. A kind of "you can't see the forest because of the trees" kind of deal. Only these are just really ^%*ing big trees.