Tdoc's actually going away for a few weeks because her daughter is having a baby. I have an appointment with her in a month. She's recommended someone if I need to be seen while she's away.

She communicates with pdoc and has called me when she's heard I was in crisis in the past. She's offered the same kind of telephone support if I need it, but I would only take her up on that offer if I was in crisis again. I don't feel like I'm in need of in-depth therapy at the moment since I'm stable, but I do call for earlier appointments when I need to.

After today I still have (hopefully only) 2 more sessions with my substance abuse counselor to look forward to…

It's about 9:30am now and it's safe to say that the amantadine has decided it's not going to do jack for me today. That spells bad news for my 2pm appointment with her. I'm on my fourth cup of coffee, but I'm feeling so ****** that I'm actually entertaining the thought of taking a nap now (I got up at about 6am) so I won't be totally out of it at 2. I don't want her to see me too messy. I don't know what to do…