I usually try to give my support on various parts of this forum, and most of that is on the RSD/CRPS subforum. I am often over there because I was diagnosed myself last July. I originally took it fairly well figuring that treatment will probably help relieve some of my pain, when in fact it has gone the other way. I have not found any relief from any treatment so far. I have lost two doctors so far because I was beyond their ability to help. My current PM is taking me off all of my meds since they do not help.

I try to make my life sound fairly good. I am married to a husband who I love, but I have even been questioning that lately as he has not been treating me all that well these past few months. Even telling me just last week that my CRPS is entirely psychosomatic. Blaming me for almost anything that possibly goes wrong. Yelling at me today for being depressed... I know that spending all day, every day around someone can drive two people a little crazy at times, especially when there is a chronic pain syndrome on top of it, but I have no way or no where to escape, even for a short while and he hardly ever goes anywhere.

I feel like I am loosing my mind. I can hardly do anything, I am often finding myself having panic attacks and difficulty breathing. I am so unsure of anything anymore.

I do have an appointment with my psychologist for a 2nd appointment on Wednesday but I feel like that is ages away. I talked with my mom for a little while yesterday, I had a good cry which felt good, tried watching a few cute short films to cheer me up, but it was all short lived.

I just feel hopeless and do not know what to do.