My best advice is, as hard as it may be, please tell someone. Give them an opportunity to listen to you, help you, and let you know they care about you. Suicidal thoughts can be scary. It's difficult and can be dangerous to suffer with them alone. I know that it's very hard to talk about symptoms of mental illness, but you need to reach out right now in order to be and feel safe. The comfort you find in a close friend or family member may surprise you.

Please let your pdoc and or tdoc know what's happening on Monday and make an appointment to be seen. It sounds like this is a new symptoms for you…

If you are having intense suicidal feelings and are engaged in things such as planning, you need to be in a safe place… please go to the ER.

Please take care mbe, and stay safe

Kay