Thank you both. I will look into those David Fairweather videos that you talked about. Maybe they can help a little with some of the anxiety.

I have heard of the pebble idea before and is a great idea for someone who does not have to live with pain every day. My husband does have an understanding of what living with pain is like, at least to some degree. He has to deal with violent foot cramps at least a couple of times a month, and has always had an issue with earaches due to a birth defect. I know it is not quite the same, but it is still pain that he has had to live with most of his life. The one big difference is that his pain often does go away. Trying to get him to understand the difference has been a real challenge. One that I have not been too successful at.

I do have a few of my in-laws coming by today. Maybe seeing my nieces and nephew will help break me out of my depression, even if it is for a short while.

I was just reprimanded this morning wallowing in my pain, and letting this depression get to me. Although it is times like just now, when he came in as I was typing this, to try to cheer me up. To remind me how much he loves me, that I feel like I just might be able to push through this.