Coopster, it happens in recovery, it is not the end, you can still keep on keeping on. Have you given some thought to Campral - my DB says it has helped reduce the cravings or there is naltrexone - which takes away the buzz, so you drink less over time because it doesn't offer the enjoyment it once did. Both methods are reliant on you taking the tablets and work best with some sort of therapy to help you work it through.