Pam,

Yes, I have read through some of your threads and do understand that you are suffering from depression. I would like to mention, I have been dealing with some mild depression all of my life. I know that the withdrawal symptoms are not helping the matter at all, but I slipped into the sadness, loneliness and helplessness that I am feeling now a few months back, which was well before I started reducing any of my medications. When I went in for a psychological evaluation for a spinal cord stimulator, I decided I was not going to lie on any of the questions to avoid going for counseling. I was going to take that opportunity to call out for some much needed help. Help I should have looked for a some time ago. I went to one psychiatrist last August when it started to consume me, but I did not like how he wanted to handle matters. I never went back, but should have started searching for someone else back then.

My husband keeps bringing up that I failed the evaluation. No, I did not fail. Please stop telling me that. I am just seeking out the help that I very much need.