It would be nice to find a place to fit in… especially to be around people who understand what it's like to live with the challenges of mental illness. Unfortunately, it's a big part of my life. At the very least, I may be able to catch a couple of DRA meetings, "if there is interest."

Besides the meeting I attended Thursday, there are a couple of other AA meetings held during the day I can try out. I don't need everyone in my audience to be bipolar, I just need to feel comfortable sharing my story. I guess that comfort level comes from what others are willing to share. If I don't feel like I can reach out at some point, there's no point in me going. I may try going to a "closed" meeting where only AA members can attend… no friends, family, etc. People usually are a lot more candid because they expect more anonymity and confidentiality.
Going to meetings would give me an opportunity to get out of the house and socialize to some degree. It wouldn't hurt me in maintaining my sobriety either.

Since I last weighed myself about 2 weeks ago, I lost 6-7lbs. I noticed the difference this morning. I think a lot of that is a result of not feeling well because of the seroquel OD this week. My appetite hasn't been the same since it happened, but I'm still eating. I'm not sad about the weight loss But I still need to get in shape.

I was looking forward to only having to deal with one appointment this coming week… the final appointment with my counselor, but because I went to the ER I have to see my PCP. I know he's going to give me **** about the medication error. He already thinks I'm on way too much seroquel so he's gonna freak out.
He's clearly uncomfortable with the severity of my mental health problems. The scar on my neck makes him very uneasy. You should see the look on his face when he examines it… He added a dx of "major depressive disorder-recurrent" after our last visit, even though he knows I'm bipolar, when I went to see him to exclude medical causes of the MS fatigue and he didn't find anything. My pdoc has encouraged me to address the issue with him. He should be asking me if he has concerns about my mental health, but I've also signed a consent so he can speak to her as well.
He is a good PCP and has always been a good advocate. My last visit was very surprising. I think talking things through with him is really worth it.