thank you eva. your words touched my heart and made me feel less alone in dealing with my brothers addiction. it is good to know others understand the pain i feel right now for him, even though i wouldn't wish this pain on anyone and i am so sorry you are feeling it too with your daughter. i hope and pray everyday that my brother will find his way back to me. i will keep praying that your daughter will do the same for you. and i hope that you and anyone else struggling with a loved one who has an addiction can find some peace in their hearts. reading your beautiful words has given me some peace in mine. i hope that i can offer the same peace to you by letting you know that you are not alone and that i care about you too. thank you again for being my friend.