And this my doctors would just
Sweep under the rug
It is absolutely been a uphill battle
This a good thing
No pain on a mental level
Where my mind just is stuck on all the negitive

Today again no doom visited me
Just the fact I can wake and "not be visited"
by this sadness that manifested physically
To myself I am true
I am feeling so much better
since taking some things into my own hands
My doctors swept it under the rug
Not a concern for helping me find the cause of my hands and feet
they cannot deny the pictures
The best description I can give as it is invisible to anyone else
The inside of my hands
Each of my didgets are painful independently
The skin tingles with fire
If I put lay my hand down it just grows
This not the same as the problem that has my doctors scatching their heads
The underside on my feet the same only they feel the heat
Don't know what it's like to walk on hot coals
I wonder
This has been the way it's been for many years now
Starting in 1999-2000 subtle changes
to where things are now

This again independent from the inflammation of vein that would eventually pop burst deflate and the to follow a huge bruise

They have not a clue
Nobody on my train says anything
This is heartbreaking
Just heartbreaking