Dear friend
This has been a lifetime of work
I have not such a nice true story as we live right now

My sister a medical assistant now a permenant F\T phlebotomist
She called me asking for some assistance on health insurance
There is someone now who is dying
All
Because
He
Cannot get health insurance
He has terminal lung cancer
This is the sad story that gets under my skin
He has been refused over and over again
My sister works for a pain specialist
Who is ready to retire soon
The richest country in the world
Killing us just by trying to force us consumers
not to have the information of GMO foods
Hopefully laws will change that
I am beside myself
As a young divorcer single mother at twenty four
My ex who worked for General Moters
Here in Linden NJ
UPON DIVORCE
He was ordered to pay $195.00 a week according to salary
He too was ordered to provide our three children children with health insurance
Well in the end
My ex at twenty six took flight
And worked for the next four years and
Transferred to another state in my own back yard
New York NY
Tarry-town to another plant
And because the child support department did not do a bloody thing to hold him accountable I upon my divorce "did not ask for alimony" as I felt I would be able to take care of myself finding a job that would offer a pay and Health Insurance
For many years "persons that were suppose to protect my children in the end failed me and my children
There is so much to this story
Bottom line
I had to apply for state health insurance
Because not only did he not pay child support
With a take home pay of $900.00 or more a week
Get the picture
He was a deadbeat
The same as my soon to be eighteen year old father
Another very pathetic story
At the end of the day in hindsight
I was a tough cookie
A tough cookie
Able to fight the system that is there to help
But treated like a pauper
And they were farthest from the truth
Deadbeats to the very end
My ex
Excommunicated himself from his children with me
What is the sad truth to this story
I had to fight all my life
Through the lies and manipulation
And how some very important persons who were suppose to oversee that my children's fathers would have at least provided health insurance
That was not the case
I have become strengthened
Empowering myself over the next thirty one years
Now
Today
Having worked hard to not only provide food shelter doctors
And this be my point
DOCTORS
my children did not suffer
If it wasn't state insurance i provided them with in the beginning and then private insurance as I worked those kinds of jobs
I always was the one to have to do it all
Still to the very end
Where the depressing state that I was already in became worse
loosing my last place of employment for the city I lived in for forty six years and lost everything my job a sense of accomplishment gone on April 22, 2015
It is still hard to swallow
But not having this doom over me has been lifted
Coming home from my pain specialist
Providing him with the information on the mutation
and how not just him passing the job over to my shrink
who in turn said I was asking him to do "tedious and how he felt it was a doubious thought"
I have written about this already
I sickens me
What I fight having to put up with
the stereotype state workers can be hurtful rather than be helpful
Most time I did their jobs
And this be my case all my life
And I'm still pushing forward
But there are many who fall short at the waist side
And tried to hurt my family or myself

There are many I have come to learn that either they did not know
Or the sick would have to go it alone
No advocate with them when need be
DOCTORS,PHARMACEUTICAL COMPANIES, and many other corrupt entities here in the state I and this dying middle aged man live in
He is dying
No help of insurance anywhere
This is what I pray for
The ones who have no more fight in them
His family wife children grandchildren await his passing
This kind of sadness I still go through
No doctor was LISTENING TO ME
like I was saying before
At the doctors office ready to hand over information so he could educate himself and that I was weaning myself off of Xanax and that because I fired my shrink
He would now have to script me the medicine
I want it out of my body so badly and I know it is going to take a long time
I have been on it since 1995 via my cardiologist
And getting that out of the way
I then begin to tell him what's been going on since the last time I seen him
And that is every four weeks

Dear friend
It is not fair for many
It hurts to hear stories such as this
And I pray for him and his family
Love
Me