Zinnia,

You have a right to feel miserable, you have CRPS, which is akin to being in one of Dante's Circles of Hell. If I had never experienced CRPS I would never have understood this, so I know other people really cannot comprehend. What helped me is a h who suffered with chronic and agonizing pain for 5 years prior to extensive neck and spine surgery. I was his do-it-all wonder wife and mom, while he lived and slept on a lazy boy recliner. I have been on the other side, so I know the thoughts and feelings-there is hurt and bitterness-a feeling of being cheated-ironically it is not so different from the hurt and bitterness I feel from having CRPS.

Yes, I wallow in "Why me?" quite often-I just make sure I am alone when I scream out loud. Venting is a good thing. I hope you schedule time to vent. Crying is a good thing, so is laughing. Allow yourself to cry and to laugh often.

Just do your best. Praise yourself out loud for all your victories no matter how small.

You might want to get a walker tray and a divided bag, if you don't have these items already-they are helpful.