I guess I will continue with my personal
Experience strength and hope
Around thanksgiving time
I met a new person who live two blocks away
through one of my longest relationships of thirty years
Moving into this new town
came with some truths
I had to separate myself from her
coming to find out that she has been this complete different person
What I have come to learn about her from her own mouth
was so disturbing I had to think long and hard about what I should do
I have recently helped her out in a massive way
starting with her floors to a new bed and mattress to rugs to baskets and stuff to
bring her very disheveled home together
How did I help
she asked and we made arrangements how she would make payment
I having pristine credit with sales coupons and extra savings (specials) did this for her
It started when she told me she "never slept"
on a new mattress ever in her life
That it was always hand me downs
i felt badly
after agreement this is what i agreed to
she would pay for the item off completely on the next bill due
she too lives in this building
And I have mentioned to her before
A huge blowout over my granddaughter
And three years later at my door asking for forgiveness
Giving our relationship another try
and to have learned of some of the things she was asked to do
such as being asked by the management workers to go to certain people's apartments
and listen at their door
When she told me this
I was floored
Could not believe what I was hearing
At the end of the day
She had to live with herself
I did not want any part of her since then and some additional things I learned
A homophobe as I have two gay children and love the regardless
She passed judgement about my children
She a mother of her only son the same age as my daughter Christine
I was slowly stepping back and out
Back to this new person I met
Having coffee with her in her now put together new home
as her son bought her a very much needed couch
add to the new look helping her paint some pieces of furniture
in sitting position with my pain now in retrospect do i not regret helping her with a fresh start
It was when meeting this woman in her apartment
i was floored what she had to say about this new person when she left
I exchanged numbers with said about her
It is so disgusting
I won't repeat it
I just told her
Do not say another word about her
I can judge myself when in her company
Thank you very much

It turns out I needed to separate myself from her as she is an active addict

I have been supportive

The moment she was called on her crap by me
She then began taking my inventory
As if she knew me
She had no clue what I am capable of
cutting her out of my life that abruptly
I have to step away from any stressors in my life
Removing both of them hasn't been the end

The last message was
Eva I just want you to know
how instrumental you have become in my life
in such a short time

I listened and thought I cannot do this
I have enough going on already

Having learned this long time friend
is now faking psychosis episodes
such as smelling fire
how she seen people falling from the towers
a blatant lie just to
receive SSI now taking drugs was enough for me
Get the picture
Here I am clearly going through physical visual at that
And here is the kind of behavior one will go and do so "NOT" to work
this has been her history

I crave my missed job
Out in the world
And now she collects
gets health insurance(something I believe everyone should have regardless)
and working watching an elderly lady in the building and does not report it
A liar
A thief
A sick individual
And as for the new friend
I too stepped back
I am not going to allow myself the opportunity and eliminate any evil doings in my life
I do not want no part in it
It felt good to help
But I was "used"
And i didn't see it
I keep to myself
And management knows not to
F with me
This I keep to myself
This I needed to do for my
Sobriety
One day at a time
One situation at the time
I give others the benefit of the doubt
And concentrate on me
Love
Me