It isn't enough I have to take care of my grandchild
But for mother and father to ignore what is necessary for her
to go to the bathroom and have wipes to use and antibacterial to use afterwards
What is wrong with them
Last week the father takes fifteen dollars from the measly amount he gives in a week
May it be fifty a week that would be magic
What does he do
Take from the daughter because he needed money for a cab
to return back home
I told my daughter when he comes to pick her up today to use the fifteen he took and get a box of wipes and two bottles of antibacterial
This I repeated over and over again
I spoke to her at seven this morning remind her
He comes to the door empty handed
My youngest so lazy it sickens me
Allowing her girlfriend from S. Carolina
For a couple of days over my watch
She would have left the home for this girl
I am just beside myself with the turd thrown my way
It is beyond beyond
Heaven forbid I be selfish and not put up with it
I am threatened with abandonment
This I have gone through over and over and over when I was depleted of everything
And now this
How much more Father
How much more
Take it all
Please allow me some happiness
No one thinks that for me
I am expected to do dodo
I can't anymore
I just hurts so much
With everything going on
How does one let go when things are repeated over and over and over again
Push to the breaking point
That is what's going on
I have to be it all
Now with my granddaughter with me all her life
Except for the first three months she was fostered
Yes I faught for her
No of this is her fault
And I am trying to keep my head together
All without a drink
Let me
Let go and let God
Amen
Me