You have had toooo much going on

It may feel like nothing will ever get better. It won't if you don't try. Please talk to your pdoc. Med changes don't always mean extra pills, a lot of times current meds just need adjustments. At the very least, you enjoy talking with him, and talking to him about the losses of Myra and Abby may make you feel better

I'm glad that the kitties are starting to settle in. I hope that alleviates some of your anxiety