it is so ******* frustrating. i told her she appears to know more than all the psychiatrists in the world with their training and experience. she makes me feel worse. I was making some progress and stayed in bed til 10 am. here it goes again. i am making coffee again. she is making me realize how horrible parts of my life are.this week i left the apartment maybe three times to go for little walks with cecilia. going to the senior center was too much for me. all i wanted to do was lie in bed.now i am all back to square one. I think i will have my coffee and read,.
if i can read. this time i don't know how to get myself out of my conflict with know it all stella who thinks i have a choice in the matter of my moods. she thinks i had a choice in sleeping for three hours a night for eight months being so upset over losing abby. I wanted to sleep.
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