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Originally Posted by PamelaJune View Post
On Saturday I cleaned the house to an inch within its life... You know what I mean. DB who was supposed to help went to the gym, popped in to place a bet, went to the hardware shop etc etc, gone for 3 or more hours. Comes back and yes I'm on a slow simmer of annoyance but I bite my tongue and say little. He badgers me with wanting to talk about his new purchase from hardware, I'm tired, in severe pain and tbh not in a good mood, I am trying to cool myself down and regain my equilibrium. His words filter through my pattern of thoughts... Went to Bunnings hardware and bought an Ozito - specifically asked the girl behind the counter to test if she found it light to handle, it's an outdoor blow vac, stipulates it has to be light so my wife can use it to. "So I can use it to" are you kidding me, I'm struggling with keeping the inside of the house clean let alone outside. I burst into tears and reiterated what I've long said, I can't do these things anymore, you all expect so much of me. I just don't understand why no-one gets it!
oh
how i know how you feel
four adult children i have
all living their lives
depleted me of all i have
ARE ANGRY AT ME
because i got ill
they are angry at me
as if i had any control over all that is happening
left to raise my granddaughter
her mother my daughter
is so out of it
it kills me
if i have nobody in my life
right now its Corissa helping
however if she ever left
i would need someone to do food shopping
and the laundry
i could not do it anymore
i help her do it properly
having to sort
such as darks
bleach whites
semi
delicates
and so on
it kill me
they cannot see how hard it is
if i could
i would rather be the one to do it
i just can't
i know how you feel
i am sorry
it truly stinks
how self absorbed they are
hoping you can get your head together
for you
love
me
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