Moving on
Leaving what I cannot do anything about
And not to look back
This is what was happening to me
when in my deep dark abyss
The reel would play over and over again
This isn't fair
I would tell myself
No way could God be listening
The fact of the matter
I wasn't in my right mind
And needed to work real hard to
Let go and let God
Let go and let God
That is how easy that was
Once I could see what I already knew
How easily I let go of my Father
Leaving what I cannot do anything about
Yet I must confess
This time around
I had to let go of my kids
The hardest thing I ever had to do in my life
I really mean that
Not having them in my life is sad
Very sad
One of the most painful things in my lifetime

I remember leaving my home
How dramatic it all was
Prepared I thaught I was
So much innocence
Wasted
Not
I have become to understand
I have zero control of destiny
Ok do not know why my body decided to break down when I did
This was tough
But do have the courage to move forward
Now in a much better place
Only can be done
One day at a time
With courage
Love
Me