Father
Brother
Mother Mary
What better way to say thank you for the good memories
Thank you for what I am to receive in my day
May I do your work
As this is your wish
I truly beleive I have no control over the pain and sorrow my children have inflicted upon me
However badly of a job I may have done
I certainly do not deserve some of the hurtful things such ads
You should have abortated me
I told her my first born this was something I understood
As I too did not ask to be born into a family like mine
But this much I know
I have NEVER abandoned my children
I worked the night shift so they did not have to fret they had nobody
I did not have a mother who was supportive
She was too busy in her new relationship
Three months after my fathers suicide
Her new boyfriend and son moved in
I left the home at that time
This my sisters would complain about
This is the past
Yet today
Being the best possible mother I could be
With what I had to work with
And most times it be You My Father
For I could not have come this far without you carring us
It is not a good feeling to be sad
And this is where I have to recall the good times
when we had the good times
On their birthday I would call them on the time they were born and celebrate it for twenty four hours
I woul ask them what they wanted for their birthday dinner
This ended a few years after I got sick
Many things gone sour
But Heavenly Father
You are my Savior
You are my Light
Bring me the blessings only You can bring
The feeling of a flannel oversized shirt with the
scent of Love
That cannot be found here on earth
Heavenly Father bring me the warmth You BLESS me with when I truly submit my will
And let You take over
In Jesus I trust
In my Father
I beleive
Amen