Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Thank you for your gifts

Letting Your will be my driving force
I need You now more than ever

Heavenly Father
My brain knows what needs to be done
Not for me but the good of my child

Heavenly Father
She left
Only to call late at night
Walking the streets
Called her father to pay for her McDonalds food

He has no clue what is happening
maybe he does
but not the truth
and he not a truthful person himself
will never see this
but this my daughter will learn


Heavenly Father
Why is she treating me
As if she were head of household
Helping herself to the orange juice that is
for my granddaughter
she is sick with a cold
Opened a new bottle
as the one opened already
was overlooked
then again she doesn't like it watered down
Why did I let her come back home
i agreed and said we shall talk when she gets home
that never happened
she asked after her shower
can we talk in the morning
this never happened

this
After calling upon You for strength in this all
As much as it hurts
I cannot walk away
I am responsible for my granddaughter
I am responsible for her feelings
and needed to protect her from what is not her fault
like i needed to protect Corissa from her sibling who was behaving
in such a destructive way
You know Father
she couldn't be exposed to that behavior
and in the end horrible results

Calling her mother yesterday morning
Asked her to call when she woke up
Never to hear from her until just a moment ago
She says good morning
I see you called
more like
good afternoon
Reminded her about my request yesterday
and she calls now as if nothing
Why Father
Why

What am I to do
I want to sell everything and just go
Just go
To the end of the earth
Just go

Why
What makes my child think she can abuse me
Over and over again
walk around and not think her behavior
isn't impressionable
Over her obsession with her phone and social media
Only You know Father
I do not need this in my life
I have this child to raise
And she has abandonment issues already because
of everyone walking away from her
Or just not being in her life
From my mother
To my sisters
To my children
Nobody
All we have is each other
And it is my daughter that she slept with
It was me who had to calm her fears
Not knowing what to expect from yesterday
to today
she hugged me
and made me wait
this i did Father
You know
Here we go all over again
She said we'd talk in the morning
It is the afternoon
she made me wait
I will call her in my room to see what decision she has made
Yesterday Heavenly Father
It was the first time I let You take over
It did not hurt that badly
But now this morning to start where it left off
I got up to feed my grandchild
She did not even do that
She was on the phone texting
This is what her life has been reduced to
On the phone with a new girlfriend
The last one wound up in the hospital
Depression over my child cheating on her

Heavenly Father
I did not raise my child to be as she is
this is not the example i set
It is not okay
Like she say's
I'm making a big deal about this all

Heavenly Father give me the strength to handle this situation
with grace
May Your word do the work
Use me Father
I cannot hurt like this any more
In Your name
Bless us
Amen