Talk about a one three punch

Right at this moment
My granddaughter is talking to her mother
Some one who has neglected to call her daughter
Is active using pain killers on the streets
Aware of the magnitude of my tolerance for excuses
I have zero tolerance
Knows I am in the situation with her sister Corissa
And has the nerve to tell me
She called to give me the heads up about getting
a lawyer to help get Eva back
I said
What part of the judges order did you not understand
To get sober
And I told her
I would suggest as the judge said
At least a year
I do not understand my family
I am spoken to as if this is about me
Not where the responsibility lies
She continues to do zero to get her child back
This child has been abandoned on so many levels
I my heart aches for her
It was so sad to see her cry for her Titti
Corissa
And now mom is giving me grief as I write
There isn't anybody to talk to that I trust will
know the extent of it all
Or nobody willing to listen that is helpful
Except my writing
It is healing when least expect it
It has become a way for me to be connected
to some other person
how does one ever truly let go of their children
the way i care and love them
misunderstood maybe
protective definitely
overbearing no
informative always
in love for certain
let down absolutely
crushed no doubt
used every time
forgotten it is
how sad i feel
how broken i am
how hard it is
not to worry
that is all i know
that is what the offered
to the very end
i pray i can get some help from my sister
i will try to arrange it
i will talk to her tonight she is working
cooking for the baby
orzo
her favorite
be back later i am sure
hurting
me