I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired
I have to put up with the phone ringing off the hook
Not a break
My daughter does not like it that I told the father
WHAT EVA WANS TO DO
Go to the park go on the swings slide
Gave her sidewalk chalk
Bread to feed the geese
there is a large man made pond
Then go for pizza
And the the ice cream palor
and have soft vanilla ice cream
on a waffle cone
with rainbow sprinkles
Is this to much to ask the father to do
And honor not taking her to her mother yet
After the broken promises
then to bring her home
Give he a bubble bath
And wait to see if mom will call at seven o'clock
Eva understands o'clock and half past
She understands time
Will look at the digital and look at the second hand on the wall
Yup
I taught her time
In her back pack
Two snacks
Bread for the geese
Sidewalk chalk
A book for her father to read
He too like Corissa's father do not know how to
READ
YOU READ RIGHT
so I needed to pick an easy read
Shame
And Corissa does not understand
how important a basic education is needed
Where are their heads
Why do I have to explain to stop being such inconsiderate
beings
We are sad right now
Let us heal
I am not keeping her from mom
I told the dad what she wanted to do
To the tee
Step by step
And then talk to mom who my last knock down was
You can do everything yourself
Not to count on her for shopping for food
or the laundry
I will have to set up ordering the bulk online
And my sister who I just spoke to
Another one who promised to come with me to Newark as my bankruptcy court is there and I cannot drive on the highway alone comfortably not to mention nobody to watch Eva
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired
Am I unreasonable
I certainly do not think so
Giving mom all the opportunity to be there for her daughter
She knows that
I know that
I am so done
Doing it
One day at a time

At this point it was this morning

And my youngest is hanging with her active addict sister
She straightened Corissa's Curley hair
I just don't get it
I just don't get it
She said she never wanted to go to that apartment
ever
That is when the baby was taken
Corissa was in eight grade
It was a Friday
She went to Christine and Eva and was suppose to come up here for the weekend
Corissa got there
Christine went in the bathroom
Came out tripping
She said always to me
I never want to go there ever
I don't get it
Me