I can see why you're having difficulties, David. There's been so much sadness in your family lately. That is a lot to handle

I think that people understand that these kind of life events are emotional triggers. I think they can be triggering for anyone. I just don't think people understand that the emotional response can be amplified in people with BP and sometimes we can't just can't make the adjustments that other people can make…. can't "snap out of it." Feeling misunderstood (or worse) just makes matters worse.

It sounds like you wish you could fix things and you want to be strong for your family If you feel like you can't show your emotions, I hope that you can find an outlet somewhere and you are using the resources available to you (pdoc, tdoc, a close friend who understands) to help you through this

Hang in there David