Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Thank you for the blessings You give today

Heavenly Father
Will she ever find her way
And return home
This is home
This is where You live
Not there yet
She could see the dedication it takes
to push through and know You will pick up the pieces
You have my heart
And it hurts
I leave the work to be done by You

Heavenly Father
Help her find her way
And come home
We miss her so much
It was a good home
Money I did not have
Even if I did
I would not dangle it in front of my children
Although I went into bankruptcy because of my children
This Heavenly Father you know and see

I am tithe one
Take me
Use me
I know they need to learn
I know I am doing what I must reguardless of
how I feel
I never wanted this for her
Her life a secret
Her life not in a good place
It kill to know that these morals are not practiced
by her new home
You know the truth
I wanted Corissa
Very much
I held Corissa hard
Now in her fathers arms
To the root of Evil MONEY
something she could have used when I was raising her
Heavenly Father
You know all this
This is what plays in my mind

What is it that was so difficult
Making appointments for herself
To take her birth control she should have started yesterday
If she stops
All hell comes loose when she ovulates

I have a lump in my throat
I am overly sensitive about the situation
I am so used to her being in my life
Yesterday
For the very first time
From the time the father picked up Eva till eight Saturday night
my home was empty for the first time in thirty five years

Heavenly Father
Am I to live a life without the support I think is out there
just for me

Why hasn't it happened
Is this another road of loneliness
Is this a road of hardship after hardship
You know my fear with my back
Let it be related to my hardwear
Things are progressing
You know my doctor said
Eva you know it will reveal the inevitable
And to find a doctor I feel one hundred percent
interested in my case
Case
There are so many things wrong at the same time
I have a sick body
In many ways
The doctors I have now
sweep very important findings under the rug
These are my doctors
Not even close to good
I have been with the three for almost ten years
Fired one

Heavenly Father
Everything is so difficult
I do not know the availability there is for me
having my disabling ways
I do not have the money to get a larger shopping cart
It took two trips to the car with a cart that is salvaged since
my dog has been with my eldest
It was used to hold garbage
Our dog would not get a way in
Oh how I miss our dog

Heavenly Father I will not allow my upstairs neighbor
ruin my quality of life
Approached her twice
Last time awakened at one thirty in the morning
So the stopped with the sound of marbles on the floor
as to get the dogs attention has stopped
But now the furniture is dragged across the floor in a very
malicious manner
Only You know
I must call management
I recorded the sounds after eleven pm
Time is ten to keep the noise down

Heavenly Father
I am asking in Your name only to
Help guide my children
How sad that my thirty year old
My addict daughter who is not a good influence
They are hanging
Is the drama over
Not quickly
I still need to call my former boss
Mayor, special senetors seat, commissioner of public works
Correct me if I am wrong
Three paychecks
Really
And all he wanted since an advocate for the poor and strained families
I knew him since a little boy
I campaigned for one person in my life
And it was for him
I had a job when he won
I never used that card
"I campaigned for you, you now owe me"
It was years later when my Corissa was ill with kidney problems
at three and a half months
Father
You know it all

I am asking to not feel the separation as hard as it has become
to deal with

Heavenly Father
Please come to me