Wow, $6.5K… I would be looking for moonlight and roses
I really have no say in how my husband spends "(his) money" though.

I got dressed and got all my laundry together this morning and was halfway out the door before I realized I had no detergent. I'll be backed up in laundry next week, but we won't be in dire need of anything. I was just at the store yesterday. Had I realized we were out I could have picked some up. I was bummed.

Things seem to be back to normal already. My husband requested I make an appointment for haircuts on Saturday. Yay! He hasn't seen the car since I cleaned it, but my work on it has obviously motivated him… He's talking about vacuuming it and buying new floor mats while we're out.
He got a new credit card and mentioned he was going to buy himself some "new toys," but I don't know what he means by that. I don't know if he knows yet. It's not a bad idea to build up a little bit more good credit since he wants to buy a new car once this one is paid off in October. I like getting out, but I hope if it means a trip to the mall we're not going all over creation because my legs aren't up to that right now.

I went to the club yesterday and sold the lunch tickets again (obviously no one else wants to do it) and had lunch myself. They made red beans and rice and it was excellent. It was a big meal for $1.75. It was a beautiful day, and I spent quite a while outside smoking and talking to other members. It's the most interaction I've had with other people in a long, long time. I really enjoyed it. Because of how I am when I'm stable, they have a hard time imagining what I'm like when I'm not. Most of the people who were out there were bipolar and also have/had alcohol abuse problems and that's what we talked about.

It is good for me to talk about stuff like that, but I have to find a line. I found some, let's just say "not good" feelings, surfacing afterwards. Part of that may have been related to the arguments that I had in the days prior with my husband, but it's happened before when I've allowed myself to dwell on that subject matter too deeply for too long and the results have not been good. All this **** is tied in a knot. When the feelings started creeping in, I excused myself and went inside, and started talking to someone about my cats. So 9 months sober, it's wonderful, let's move on to something else. Since about November I've been pretty successful at redirecting myself…

The weekends always go by fast and Wednesday will be here before I know it. I called the MA DMV this morning to make damned sure I have all the paperwork I need for my visit. I do. I've been getting it in order since then.

Since there is peace again, and I'm not worried I'm missing anything for my hearing at the DMV, I'll allow myself to really get excited now