Dear Frogga -

I am so sorry to hear about what you went through. It sounds horrible. That said, do you have any idea of what sort of palliative care they could offer while you were/are hospitalized? I only ask because a number of years ago, I was in Philadelphia for a week long lidocaine infusion before being considered for ketamine, and when the lidocaine didn't work and the pain remained intense, the nurses were right there with the Demerol, which wasn't a bad way to go.

Second thought, I know they don't have ketamine in the UK, but there is quite an active program in Germany. Is there any way through the NHS that you could get a grant to participate in a high dose ketamine study in Deutschland? Could this otherwise horrible neurosurgeon have any connections in that regard? Just a thought . . . .

We love you.

Mike