I'm so glad you are having success with focusing on the now. For me, that was how I got to an "acceptance" point. I took a class on mindfulness and it helped me focus on living in the now, instead of thinking about what I could do 2 years ago or what I will be able to do 5 years from now. There are things I can do right now and I'm going to do them and enjoy them while I still can. I have no idea what tomorrow will bring, so I want to live a life of joy now, while I know it's possible. I hope your focus on the now continues to bring you the strength you need to get through.