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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Georgia
Posts: 905
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Georgia
Posts: 905
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My Bubba Pool is almost FULL !
Just needed to talk to my friends.
My emotions have been all over the place this past week. They put my new pool liner in yesterday. The guy said the hole in the liner seam was so big he could put his finger through it !
The liner is light blue with some spots of blue or black. Very bright and inviting. It makes me happy. Bubba's Pool.
I have finally hired a deck contractor. Waiting on a start date and to sign the contract.
And just as quick I'm sad  It's been 8 months and 4 days since I lost Bubba. I can go days without crying but then it just seems too much and I'll cry on and off all day long. No more hysterical crying like in the beginning....just tears and sadness at my loss.
Sometimes I just want to HIT something. Sometimes I've accepted that it was the best thing for him. He would have never gotten back to his normal self in mind or body and he was very vocal about not ever wanting to live like that.
He always said "I'd rather die than be put in a corner with a potted plant on my head !". And he meant it. We'd see people that had issues like he would have had and he always said he didn't want to live like that. So that's acceptance I guess.
Thanks for taking time to read this. Helps just putting it in writing for y'all to read.
Debi
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