Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Why my post is connected to Gerry's post
has to be for a very specific reason

Heavenly Father
I have been on hold for so very long now
Am I not the one all come to
ONLY
when turd hits the fan
I have a very difficult decision to make and follow through
I have not turned my back on my family ever
I have done for my family
With no conditions

Here I am now
At my weakest
My family understands I cannot do certain things for myself anymore no matter how much I try
I have do for everyone before I could do for myself
Do I need to fall break my bones for them to understand
I cannot do certain gosh darn things
I need a hair cut so badly
forced to let it grow
Forced into change
Not a word from my daughter Corissa who is in the hospital with a kidney infection
Having had unprotected sex now with men and women
I don't get it
How is sex in the minds of today's children the way to find out if you are gay or not
Having sex does not make that determination
It is the MIND SPIRIT WHO ONE REALLY IS
I have many reasons to worry now
My daughters father thinks this is nothing to be concerned about
he hasn't called me with information on Corissa
I call the program I had her put into when I took her out of school
Heavenly Father
Can you please take care of my very very sick child
It upsets me to no end
Her eldest sister my daughter and her husband
Turned Corissa on to a joint Nd lit it up to celebrate her birthday
Heavenly Father
I have many reasons to worry
She has a addictive personality
And I expressed to the counselor
And she will reach out to Corissa
She will keep me informed
I'm going on and on
I don't know if I'm coming or going
Two
Not one but two of my kids in the hospital
How can this be
Heavenly Father
Scoop me up
Don't let me go
Help me
Help myself
I hurt so badly
How do I not think about it all
Me