Everyday I wake
My tears are streaming down my face
Left with not knowing what is going on
Not a word
No comfort
Just sadness
Wanting it all to stop
Just stop
I have not gotten any better
It just rips me to shreds
She wound up in the hospital
Why
Why
Why'd I have to have this happen
Hasn't enough happened already
Suffer I must
I have choices
Suffering triumphs all the time
Saddness trumps
All that I had in my life onetime is gone
And am left to raise my granddaughter
It won't matter what I do
She will whatever she wants
When she turns that magical age eighteen
It doesn't matter
I know
I've tried it
It didn't matter