The utter disregard
The dismissive behavior
A phone call I receive
She is asking me to do something
Something that would only take her
1 block to walk
Could I search for her transcript
And hung up on me when I told her she needed
to go to a school to get them
I call HIM tell HIM that having her call and
ask for something I do not have and utterly
hurtful to please not allow her to do that
She is ignoring my test also
What happened
She isn't pregnant
Something I feared
Now to be cleared of diseases
Will take at least a year

Spent time with my my daughter
My grandchilds mother
We went
To the park to feed the geese
And in the bunch there was a white one
Just one
Now I know they did not just dump the birds in
the man made pond
But it was there
We spoke about many things
Many
Even asked wh she stopped hugging and kissing me hello or goodbye
I have so much in me that wants to come out
So much of me unknown
So much they don't know
It is so important to me
that they take the mutation seriously
My youngest I don't know what to think or say
It is beyond hurt at this point
I am withering rotting slowly
My body hurts with such intense pain
I want to scratch y skin off it burns and hurts so much
All on my right side
My entire right side
What is wrong with me
We went out for lunch
Went to a Brazilian restaurant
I have faith my child has been bitten by the rooms
I see it working
She is tired
Very tired
She reached out to my son
Turns out he to has lifted a demons
I pray for the obsession to be lifted
They will one day be who they were meant to be
My children still have a chance to some happiness
Divided we are
You have no idea how divided

Heavenly Father
Give this family a chance
to enjoy one another

Heavenly Father
Allow the obsession to be lifted

Heavenly Father
Allow that special someone into my life

Heavenly Father
Allow my grandchild a chance
to begin life without drama
Something she already understands
She tells me how she want to be grown up like me
I told her if that happens
She will have to become way more responsible
It is time to have lots and lots of fun
Not that a adult cannot have the same fun
But you get the picture

Heavenly Father
Allow us all to understand
What it is all for and about

We humans need to really stop and smell the flowers
Look at the birds
Look at the stars
Look into one another's eyes when speaking to them
Live a life of joy and happiness
Enough sorrow
Enough sadness
To be empowered is what I try and do every morning
Come here
Write my life away
Gives me purpose
To hope to send good messages
To be positive even in adversities that rip
through me like a storm
Love
Me