Hi, I just want to cry all the time and I miss working like crazy. Before all this crap happened I was the General Counsel and Board Secretary for a company out here.

I do have some short term issues occasionally, but I've learned work arounds. I had worked as an expatriate in 13 countries and at that time I was doing stuff in 3 countries outside the US.

I still stay current on things and people still call me occasionally for help.

The whole thing they tell me is quality of life, I feel no quality, except when I'm around the twins (9year olds and the granddaughter a) But of course I can't see them all the time since they don't live with us any more.

People always tell me, "well, it beats the alternative." (how do they know?) or there are others worse off, etc. I feel for these people but this is me.

I'm about to explode.