That was not an easy thing to admit, thank you for not judging me

My pdoc is wonderful. When I got into her office I was immediately comfortable. I knew it was safe to tell her and it was the right thing to do. She is very supportive. My PCP and husband still think the burn was an accident, and it will stay that way.

I have a lot of insight. I can usually analyze what's going on pretty well, but I sometimes have a hard time expressing how I'm actually feeling, and obviously have a hard time controlling what's going on at times no matter what my logic is telling me. It's ****ing frustrating.


I spoke to an agent at my auto insurance co. on Monday to make sure a prior cancellation notice would be voided, and it was, so that's all set. She never mentioned that our payments were no longer being directly withdrawn from our checking account and we missed a payment (for a random amount) the day before… I got an email last night saying our policy was in danger of being canceled because of it, but we never even received a bill or email before then. So I freaked out, then made a one time payment online so we'll be okay. I guess I'll have to contact the insurance co. directly to set up direct withdrawals. Maybe then all the DUI business will be over?

I'm going to go to the club today. I feel a little weird because it's been quite a while. I had planned on heading over for the morning meeting at 9am, but I actually slept in this morning until 7 and decided I'm going to take my time and be a little lazy today. I'm not going to spend a long time there. I don't want to get over tired because I'm driving myself.

I'm probably going to fade faster today because it's going to be close to 80 degrees and I don't do well in the heat d/t the MS. I have to wear long sleeves now, which makes it worse, but I know from last year it will just take me a couple of weeks to adjust to wearing them no matter how hot it gets.