He came home from work feeling terrible. He never feels well. I told him that untreated anxiety and/or depression can tear your body down and make you feel like ****. He repeatedly refuses to go to a doctor for his any of his physical symptoms, and did not appreciate my suggestion last night that he see someone from psych. I told him the offer still stands if he ever changes his mind.

I can tell you that if I behaved way he does in response to my anxiety or other symptoms, it would NOT go over well. I have to do my best to hide my symptoms and try not to appear to be in a bad mood.

I see my tdoc today at 9am. I think it's a good day for it. I have plenty of material.

I am going to the club afterwards for lunch. No excuses. I do feel strange about it because I haven't been in so long, but I'm sure I'll be fine.

Between seeing my therapist and talking to other members at the club, I'll be able to tell if I'm hypo or not. If I am, I'll be talking ragtime, and that's one of my tells. That symptom isn't present/noticeable at home unless I'm really high.