Originally Posted by eva5667faliure

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

To thank You for blessings bestowed

I am killing myself
The sadness is so cold
The house so empty
I have no strength
My back hurst so badly
To the touch
Just the air alone
It hurts so badly
Fill my heart with You
I pray You help guide me
I pray You hear me
I pray You will protect me
I pray for it to stop
I pray You heal me
I pray to laugh
I pray for no more sadness
It is killing me
You know all Heavenly Father
Heal me
Please
Come to me
Help me help myself
I am left alone
Because I have been let down by all who say they care
Now when sick
Nobody is around
Nobody to take of me when I need help
Even in the hardest times
Eva is getting older
Ready to start school in September
Who will step up
I have made the arrangements for her to be registered in the town I moved from 46 years
All new schools built
All new technology

I cannot stop the tears
It is everyday
Throughout the day
Anybody who goes through this
Is NOT well
And I must fight the fight
It is so hard
So hard
Pain has a hold on me
All kinds
Not just one
So done
So want to just melt away
Like an ice cube
No flavor
No color
You can't see it
When it melts and dries up
Me